Understanding

So many people get me in so many different ways and I appreciate it more than anyone knows.

But can you completely understand me, ever, can I ever fully understand myself?

I honestly don't know.

Today I went to my first yoga class and at the end we meditate. I realized that I need more physical strength, and that I have such a great emotional strength and I am strong. At meditation, as the trippy cool Indian music played I was laying on the floor and above my chest I envisioned this golden light, it was bright and there were birds in it and voices and mouths and vines and everything was there. It was like a tornado but less violent, it was a tornado of peace.

I looked up at the ceiling and I thought this is an important moment in the movie of my life. It was a shot, the main character realizes something important or it shapes them in some way. I don't know exactly what it was, but I know it was there and I can't wait to see what I learned.

Things happen and people change and you can't always understand and there are somethings I will never understand that some people might have an infinite knowledge about, that doesn't mean they are any better or that I am any better or less than, it just means that we differ.

Life is a quest for understanding and knowledge, but also a quest to accept that you can't understand everything and that is okay.

Its all good, just know what you know and strive to learn and I think that is what will make me happiest and help me to understand more and be more understanding.

Knowing that I don't have to understand to be understanding.